Psalm 77

I read some Bible verses that mentioned miracles. I really liked this passage of Psalm 77. I think it fits very well. For two days (last weekend), I was too distressed to pray (something that has never happened to me before). I may not be well disciplined to sit down and pray for specific needs like I should, but I always conversate throughout the day with God, and I just couldn't. The words just wouldn't come out. 

I feel like, regardless of the final outcome, I saw a miracle on Thursday. I returned to the same well-respected, experienced clinic that wanted to "process" the pregnancy like a miscarriage and saw not only my embryo and its sac growing on the screen but a steady flicker of light from the core of the embryo. A heartbeat.

Anyone can say what they want, but I believe God is the giver of life, and He demonstrated His power to me. I beg and pray that this will continue so the baby can grow to term and come home with us. 

I cry out to God; yes, I shout.
    Oh, that God would listen to me!
² When I was in deep trouble,
    I searched for the Lord.
All night long I prayed, with hands lifted toward heaven,
    but my soul was not comforted.
³ I think of God, and I moan,
    overwhelmed with longing for his help. Interlude

⁴ You don’t let me sleep.
    I am too distressed even to pray!
⁵ I think of the good old days,
    long since ended,
⁶ when my nights were filled with joyful songs.
    I search my soul and ponder the difference now.
⁷ Has the Lord rejected me forever?
    Will he never again be kind to me?
⁸ Is his unfailing love gone forever?
    Have his promises permanently failed?
⁹ Has God forgotten to be gracious?
    Has he slammed the door on his compassion? Interlude

¹⁰ And I said, “This is my fate;
    the Most High has turned his hand against me.”
¹¹ But then I recall all you have done, O Lord;
    I remember your wonderful deeds of long ago.
¹² They are constantly in my thoughts.
    I cannot stop thinking about your mighty works.

¹³ O God, your ways are holy.
    Is there any god as mighty as you?
¹⁴ You are the God of great wonders!
    You demonstrate your awesome power among the nations.
¹⁵ By your strong arm, you redeemed your people,
    the descendants of Jacob and Joseph. Interlude

¹⁶ When the Red Sea saw you, O God,
    its waters looked and trembled!
    The sea quaked to its very depths.
¹⁷ The clouds poured down rain;
    the thunder rumbled in the sky.
    Your arrows of lightning flashed.
¹⁸ Your thunder roared from the whirlwind;
    the lightning lit up the world!
    The earth trembled and shook.
¹⁹ Your road led through the sea,
    your pathway through the mighty waters—
    a pathway no one knew was there!
²⁰ You led your people along that road like a flock of sheep,
    with Moses and Aaron as their shepherds.

-Psalm 77