Housekeeping

Emotionally, I am managing better than I would have expected. Maybe since I fully dove into my grief as everything was happening, the only remnants are things it will just take time to process. I actually feel more hopeful now than I did after the failed cycle in May. Who would have thought?

Physically, I am slowly getting back to normal. Monday morning was a doozy. I felt dazed. I couldn't remember my office number when someone asked me (something I recount at least twenty times a day). But I eased back into the grind. I have been tired but have at least had the strength to keep up with a high caseload at work. I look forward to a check-up next week with the RE who did my first d&c, so I can have reassurance I am healing correctly (I'm nervous about adhesions).

I am also looking forward to a phone consult with Dr. K next week to discuss the miscarriage, hopefully results of the genetic testing (fingers crossed it will be back in time!), and any potential additional testing or changes to my protocol he may want to make for next cycle. I assume he will give orders to test my hcg (was 2650 last week at the ER- hopefully it is on the downward trend).

I've spoken with the NEDC about matching with more embryos, but I am still waiting for some profiles. Strangely, I am more patient now than the last two times I've had to wait for profiles. Maybe the gravity of the fact this is potentially our last chance is scary? (Normally you are limited to 3 tries at NEDC, but since my first transfer had only one viable embryo, there's a chance I could have 4 tries from what Dr. K told me after the first failed transfer).

I should enjoy this "down time" before the craziness of rematching then medication protocol starts. Really though, I need to call the monitoring RE to get a print out of all my visits because they've gotten so out of hand that I'm starting to lose track which is not good if I want to a) Make sure insurance is covering the few things they should b) Claim all the pregnancy labwork (the doctor is in network but the lab is not so I have to file those on my own... ridiculous is what it is) c) Have good records for tax time.

And I need to write out all my questions for Dr. K because twenty minutes time at the cost of a hundred bucks needs to be well planned.

And then there's the almost due vet visits that can't be out of compliance because that would make us fail a future homestudy (not really, but it does have to be up to date should we need another homestudy update... please Lord, please Lord, not another homestudy update!!!). Because kids (embryos, in our case) can't be adopted into a home with kitties that have past due shots. The horror of the thought!